Tuesday, November 29, 2016

When I close my eyes I see you, no matter where I am.

I've been listening to a lot of Zac Brown Band these past couple of months. I like country music, but only very specific country music. It has to be just the right amount of pop, country and actual musical talent. I can't get into folk country right now or country country either. But while I don't listen to a lot of country music, I've always appreciated it. I love the lack of ambiguity. It's either a sad song where the singer wants their love back, someone died, etc or it's really sweet and happy. A lot of times you listen to other genres of music and it's not like that. The lyrics are super sad and depressing yet here I am bopping around in a good mood. It just doesn't make sense. Anyway, Zac Brown is a beautiful human with an even more beautiful voice. "Colder Weather" is such a good song, you should listen to it on repeat.

I'm also partially watching Once Upon a Time. I gave up on True Blood...that's such a terrible show. No offense to those that liked it. Maybe one day I'll pick it back up, but I doubt it. As for OUAT, I'm not into it anymore. I'm about to give up. I need to focus on Game of Thrones and finish all of the books. I just finished A Storm of Swords. I loved it though I missed *spoiler alert* the whole Red Wedding and the incident with the bear. I'm not sure how I skipped such big parts of the book, but I did. Made for some confusion when watching the show. I knew that the 3rd book and the 4th season overlapped, but I didn't  realize how much.

In other news, I went to Maryland for thanksgiving and it was very nice. No yelling. It wasn't very eventful, just a lot of eating and lounging around. Back to work yesterday....

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

And I'd slay the horrible beast they'd commissioned to steer me away from my mission

So I've come up with Pavlovian process of not having these feelings. It's 97% effective, kudos to me.
I just think about this horrible time and then I focus on it. So that's not technically Pavlovian, but it's whatever some psychological term. But it's working, so hallelujah
I've been listening to Say Anything this week. I'm trying really hard to not focus on the dumb shit that I did a little bit ago. It's hard. I don't know when I turned into this crazy, emotional,  embarrassing person.

I'm excited for thanksgiving. There are a bunch of people coming so I'm hoping it'll be fun.

👍🏻

Saturday, November 19, 2016

once the world stops spinning, read that writing on the wall

So this past week, I went to a conference in Wilks-Barre, PA. Mighty exciting, that place. You'd think they could send us to an interesting place, like Philadelphia. Literally anywhere else. Much like St. Mary's County, the most exciting thing to do was go to Target. I went to some cute little restaurants and we went to a casino. Unfortunately, most of the conference consisted of me sitting in a chair listening to one of three presenters speak about this new program we're getting trained in. I really feel sorry for people that have to sit for 8 hours a day. How do you do it? I think I pinched a nerve from sitting so long, my arm started to go numb. Boy, was that boring. But it was a nice change from work and I didn't have to worry about paperwork or phone calls or anything. What a stress-free life style. It really did wonders for my skin and hair. Either that or it's the water in that side of the state. 

Before the conference, I went to see Eric. I got there on Friday afternoon, met his parents, went to dinner. Saturday we laid around and then went on a walk. Drove around a lot. Lancaster is a nice place. Went to Target. Sunday, Eric had to work but I was too lazy to get up and the conference was only 2 hours away from Lancaster so I slept in and I drove to his work before leaving to say bye. Lancaster has some outlets, so obviously I stopped there and spent too much money. 

I had a lot more to say in this blog, but I can't think of what it was. I feel ,like I've been going through some weird emotional stuff right now and I need to sort it out. I mean, there's really nothing I can do about these problems other than to stop thinking about them. But still. I need to stop being crazy. I really don't know when this started. I'm not a crazy person, yet here I stand. 

Thursday, November 10, 2016

I couldn't know what's in your mind, I saw the pictures, you're doing fine

I've just been listening to The Lumineers for about two weeks. Only this newest cd for some reason,

I'm trying to pack because I'm going to see Eric this weekend and then I'm going to a conference in Wilkes-Barre. Everyone gets to go to all of these cool places for work and I'm going to northeastern Pennsylvania. Couldn't we have at least gone to Philadelphia or literally anywhere else? Packing is too hard. At least I'm attempting to pack the night before. Normally I wait till ten minutes before I'm about to leave to pack, but I have to work tommroe morning which I'm really annoyed about. But what can you do?