Saturday, July 25, 2015

the songs on the radio are okay, but my taste in music is your face.

So as of late, I've had this debilitating anxiety over bed bugs. I mean it's not like it is an unlikely thing that could happen. I haven't been able to sleep very well because I'm so worried that I have them and I'm going to spread them to people. Like I had a dream last night that Zac's goddaughter had them. And that there was one on my bed. Now, I haven't seen any and I've been very careful around the only lady that I work with that has like a 3% chance of having them, so I don't think that the odds of me having them or getting them are very likely. But still. I got a bed bug mattress cover, I've double washed all of the clothes in my room and my sheets, I'm getting my comforter dry cleaned and I got a new mattress pad. If I was wearing clothes that could have come into contact with a bed bug, I take them off immediately and put them in  a plastic bag and then wash them. BUT WHO KNOWS.
Like I think I'm at the point where I need to go see a therapist about this, it's getting that bad. Every time I feel something on my leg (you know when you think there's something there and there's not..) I freak out. I shower about 3 times a day. I can't take this anymore. Thankfully the lady that worries me is about to get transferred to case management in a different county so I don't have to worry about it. But did you know that it can take 6-17 days for these assholes to hatch. I get so worried I picked up some eggs somewhere because I don't have any bites and the websites says they're painful and you will have little spots of blood all over your sheets, which I also don't have. But still, the worry is almost unbearable. I almost cried today worrying about it so much. I need a life.

In more exciting news, I've been listening to a lot of new music because of Apple Music and all I've been doing is trying to find new music.

I actually have to work tomorrow, so that's a bummer. I've gotten used to not having to work on the weekends. My manager needs to either like me or not like me. And then I'm going to be on call next week so get ready for my anxiety to be through the roof with my bed bug paranoia and the general anxiety I get just from being on call.


Anyway, it's Saturday night and I'm about to play Sims and read. I'm so cool. But  I just don't feel like doing anything. I steamed my mattress today and vacuumed it too. And I cleaned my car and bought all of this bed bug barrier stuff so I'm kind of just tired. And all of that other stuff.

Oh! And the best news of all: You can now check out CD's from the library for 3 weeks now instead of 1 week. Think of how many less fines I will have!


Some of the artists that I've been listening to are

Elle King, George Ezra and Twenty One Pilots. I'm obsessed with all of them. Thank you, Apple Music

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

wrap up

So I finally have my computer up and working. I restored it back to its May 2015 health, let's see if that fixes any of its nonsense. 

What have I been doing since May?

hmmm...


 I went home for my birthday and these are the ONLY pictures I took? I never take any pictures anymore. 

 Aww the little baby isn't so little anymore :/
 FOB
 Me, Whitney and Marissa. I remember taking these pictures but I didn't realize it was my phone. Good concert? YES
 Atlantic City. Drinking on the beach.


 A bird pooped on Marissa
 Dinner view
 Dinner drinks. 
 This clearly went through multiple people...how did this mistake get past them all?
 This was the biggest escalator I've ever been on. 
 Right after I took this, some really drunk man came up and begged us to let him take our picture. 
 I think this is the greatest thing ever. 
more beach.




So clearly, I went to Maryland for my birthday. I think it was fun? I honestly can't even remember what we did. Not that I have to remember, because I know we laid in bed and watched TV. Just a different show is watched every summer. I got a nice cake for my birthday and my dad made the lasagna. Then I came home and I don't think anything happened in June that I can remember. I just hated everything and everything sucked and I just really hated people. And then July came, and all was good. I went to see FOB, which was AMAZING. They were touring with Wiz and none of us had any desire to see him so we just sat in my car and drank IC Light. We were worried about being late, but all was good. I know that we annoyed some people. No one gets that excited at these concerts. I think next year I'll spend a lot of money to get tickets in the pit. Then Marissa and I went to Atlantic City for a few days. It wasn't very eventful, but it was a nice ride and it was nice to get away from my horrible job for a few days. 

Other than that, everything has been great. Who am I? I don't think I've ever said that and genuinely meant it before. 

But I am sweating a lot. I sometimes wonder if my grandma has ever heard of air conditioning.