Wednesday, July 31, 2013

and i don't want to leave you lonely, but you've got to make me change my mind

I've just been really annoyed with everything lately and I'm sorry I'm in such a sour mood constantly. I try to think positively, but I can't. It's not in my blood. I wish that I had something exciting happening in my life. I went to Tegan and Sara a few weeks ago. I've been watching a lot of pretty little liars. Maybe I'll watch that right now. It's 11 pm though and I have to get up tomorrow. I'm starting to dread work.

It's really like I have no issues and my life is work and then all of the sudden there are ten things in my personal life that I have to attend to. Nothing fun, of course.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Things I hate about fashion:

The high-low dresses: If I never see one again, I will be happy. Who thought this was a good idea? I just don't get it. I'm not sure if I hate these or asymmetrical dresses more.

Booties. Okay I actually don't have a problem with them, I just can't get over the word. I hate most words with "ies" at the end of it, it seems. 

Sheer tops without tank tops...I can see your bra and you're in public. 

When people who can't dress have fashion blogs. I've said this before, but stop. I'm trying to find inspiration and I can't because your outfits are horrendous.

You treat me like a queen but like a queen I don't know when I'll be slain

Today is nice. I don't have to work until 930 so I've been sitting on the porch for an hour listening to the rain drinking coffee. 
Grandma is going to drive me batty.
I'm still happy I got pens for 1 cent at Staples. Yes you heard that right. 8 pens for one cent. You have to buy 5 dollars worth of merchandise but what they hey I bought 30 post it notes for 10 dollars.

Saturday, July 6, 2013

I should go, but I will probaby stay.

I'm watching Pregnant and Dating though I can't tell you why. How do these pregnant ladies get hit on constantly. I look pregnant. Seriously.
Something must've come over me though because I'm dressed and my make up is done and it's a Saturday. I'm not even going anywhere. But that's obvious, I'm sure. 

I felt like blogging just because the issue of my lack of emotions came up again. It's always really confusing, and I never know how I'm supposed to act. Am I supposed to cry all of the time? Is this what you mean by emotions? And obviously I'm talking about boys calling me emotionless. I know the main reason guys break up with me, but sometimes I wonder if one of the tertiary reasons because of how I act. I don't even know if it is because my lack of emotions, that's just their excuse. I was talking to Alex this morning and she was going on and on and on about all of the people that she hates and how they annoy her. I told her she was being a bitch and no one will like her if she acts like that. Then I thought, maybe that's how people feel about me. Like one time when I was at dinner with Tony and his friends, I remember he was annoying me so much and I'm sure it showed on my face. I didn't do it on purpose, but I couldn't help it. I was trying to be cordial, but you know when you make that
face? I don't even do it on purpose, and I never realize I'm doing it. Am I judging? You just said something really embarrassing, I'm sorry. Why are you holding my hand? I'm trying to eat. Get your hand off my leg, we are in public. You know, these type of things? I'm not picky, but lately everyone I meet is just annoying me. They're always saying the wrong things. But what can you do? And you know when you keep trying to make something work, but it won't. Yes.

Anyway, I'm hungry. At least food will always be there fore me.