I'm so mad at myself because I did so well today with food and then I came home and there was a cute little plate of dinner waiting for me and I felt obligated to eat it. I mean, my grandma did go to all of that trouble to put it together for me...
Such an excuse. I know this.
I've been feeling a lot jealousy today and it should probably stop. My arch nemesis is dead and gone but I think I found a new one today. I don't understand why girls have to be so catty. I mean, I'm clearly not above all of this and that and talking behind other girls' backs but still. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. To my knowledge I didn't do anything to you so stop saying things about me. Thank you. God, who needs to get out of retail?
I keep dreaming about moving to the beach and winning the lottery and not having to see people I don't want to see ever again. And just seeing the people I love and want to be with. We can all lay by the pool everyday and no one will care if we're fat and ugly and we can talk about odd things till the sun goes down. Boys will be perfect and they won't hurt us. We don't have to be judged and we can shop all day with our endless amounts of money. And we won't have to worry about being cold ever again and we will NEVER EVER have to scrape ice off our car at 6 in the morning.
But I'm just whining. I apologize.
I feel like I really have been in a good mood lately. No one has really been annoying me (other than my schedule at work). I'm going to meet my new client on Saturday (hopefully. Even if he is horrid).
I've also realized lately that I'm extremely immature. I always thought that maybe it's a good quality to be non-confrontational and to sweep your feelings under the rug. I'm starting to see this isn't the case. Why does everyone want to talk about their feelings? Let's just ignore them and pretend like certain things never happened. I think that's the easy way of dealing with things. But I guess I'm learning that it's not the proper way to display emotions.
I think I've always been that way though. And I know it annoys people when I don't respond to them when they start fighting with me. (Marissa: remember that time we all got in trouble with APhi and everyone was balling and I was just like "oh hi")
And P.S can someone give me a million bucks so I can buy a bag that I really want?