Monday, October 31, 2011

Well you disappeared so often like you dissolved into coffee.

Last night I went to this training session for Best Buy in the hopes that I would win a laptop or an HP Touchpad that they give away. Of course, my lack of luck won out over my enthusiasm and I was left with a twenty dollars in Dave and Buster's and Subway gift cards. I was only 100% depressed about not winning anything. But it actually ended up being sort of fun. There was a bar and George and I were literally the only ones who utilized it. So I was the only one out of 100 people who was tipsy. I laughed the whole time and made too much noise while the man was giving his presentation. 
When ever he was done talking about what looked like printers, we took our free 10 dollars worth of points and went to the arcade. I played a whole bunch of shooting games with my new best friend, lost about 30 rounds of basketball with George and perfected my slandering ability. I'm getting so good at that.
I'm also getting really good at being a 12 year old girl. 
It's kind of flattering.
This is why I need a real job so I don't get sucked into all of this drama.

Monday, October 24, 2011

survey. please forgive me.

  • 1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? 
    • Usually closed. But at the moment my closet is open. I've stopped caring. 
  • 2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? 
    • Yes, but I never use them. 
  • 3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? 
    • Usually tucked out because I never bother to make my bed. 
  • 4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before? 
    • Nope. I'd freak out. 
  • 5: Do you like to use post-it notes? 
    • Not really. I have a good memory for things. 
  • 6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? 
    • Clearly.
  • 7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? 
    • A bear?
  • 8: Do you have freckles? 
    • Not really, no. 
  • 9: Do you always smile for pictures? 
    • Hardly. 
  • 10: What is your biggest pet peeve? 
    • Whistling. 
  • 11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk? 
    • Not really, no. 
  • 12: Have you ever peed in the woods? 
    • Yes. 
  • 13: What about pooped in the woods? 
    • Not yet. One day. 
  • 14: Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing? 
    • Uh, yes. 
  • 15: Do you chew your pens and pencils? 
    • Yep. I can't help it. 
  • 16: How many people have you slept with this week? 
    • Ahh. Technically one. 
  • 17: What size is your bed? 
    • Twin. Just like college dorm livin. 
  • 18: What is your Song of the week? 
    • I don't have one this week. Last week was the acoustic version of "Dear Maria, Count Me In"
  • 19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink? 
    • No, I'd rather them wear purple. 
  • 20: Do you still watch cartoons? 
    • Not really. Sometimes though. 
  • 21: Whats your least favorite movie? 
    • Stepbrothers. 
  • 22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? 
    • I would hide it in the form of a shopping spree. 
  • 23: What do you drink with dinner? 
    • Water or strawberry milk. 
  • 24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in? 
    • I think chicken nuggets are disgusting. 
  • 25: What is your favorite food? 
    • Spaghetti. 
  • 26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love? 
    • When Harry Met Sally, Mean Girls, The Women, You've Got Mail and Gone With the Wind.
  • 27: Last person you kissed/kissed you? 
    • Bahhh officially... I think it was Dan.
  • 28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout? 
    •  I got up to a Brownie.
  • 29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? 
    • Been there, done that. 
  • 30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? 
    • When my friend Laura and I thought it would be cool to be Pen Pals one summer between college. 
  • 31: Can you change the oil on a car? 
    • I know how to do it. And I can put oil in a car/check the oil. 
  • 32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket? 
    • Nope. I got out of it. 
  • 33: Ever ran out of gas? 
    • Not yet. 
  • 34: Favorite kind of sandwich? 
    • Big Sammich. 
  • 35: Best thing to eat for breakfast? 
    • Everyday I like cereal. But for special occasions I like pancakes. 
  • 36: What is your usual bedtime? 
    • 10
  • 37: Are you lazy? 
    • You don't even know. Everyone tells me that I'm not, but I really am the laziest person you'll ever meet. 
  • 38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? 
    • Nothing fun. Usually a witch or some other generic, boring costume. 
  • 39: What is your Chinese astrological sign? 
    • Dragon. 
  • 40: How many languages can you speak? 
    • One. I'm so talented. 
  • 41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions? 
    • Nope. 
  • 42: Which are better legos or lincoln logs? 
    • Ashleigh and I got Fegos when we were kids.   
    • 43: Are you stubborn? 
      • I was thinking about this last night and I've decided that I'm going to be stubborn from now on. 
  • 44: Who is better...Leno or Letterman? 
    • Letterman. 
  • 45: Ever watch soap operas? 
    • Nope. 
  • 46: Are you afraid of heights? 
    • Nah, not really. 
  • 47: Do you sing in the car? 
    • Yes, who doesn't?
  • 48: Do you sing in the shower? 
    • Hahah not in a while. 
  • 49: Do you dance in the car? 
    • eeek, yes. 
  • 50: Ever used a gun? 
    • No, I couldn't. 
  • 51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? 
    •  Lifetouch in the LHS auditorium.
  • 52: Do you think musicals are cheesy? 
    • No way.
  • 53: Is Christmas stressful? 
    • No, I usually forget to give everyone a present or I go out on Christmas Eve and get random stuff no one wants. 
  • 54: Ever eat a pierogi? 
    • I have and I love them. 
  • 55: Favorite type of fruit pie? 
    • Eh...none? Pumpkin pie is the only kind of pie I actually like. 
  • 56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? 
    • Doctor...duh. And a teacher. See where that got me?
  • 57: Do you believe in ghosts? 
    • Yes and no. 
  • 58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? 
    • Yes, and I've come to the conclusion that Deja-vu is just things that you've dreamed. 
  • 59: Take a vitamin daily? 
    • Hahah no.
  • 60: Wear slippers? 
    • When I buy them. 
  • 61: Wear a bath robe? 
    • No, that creeps me out for some reason. 
  • 62: What do you wear to bed? 
    • A shirt/tank top
  • 63: First concert? 
    • N'Sync 
  • 64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? 
    • Target for sure. 
  • 65: Nike or Adidas? 
    • I have Nike running shoes...so I guess Nike.
  • 66: Cheetos Or Fritos? 
    • Depends if I'm eating chilli or not. 
  • 67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? 
    • Sunflower seeds
  • 68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? 
    • Nope. 
  • 69: Ever take dance lessons? 
    • Nope.
  • 70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? 
    • Teaching. Otherwise something that makes a lot of money. But since I'm not getting married this doesn't really matter. 
  • 71: Can you curl your tongue? 
    • Yes. 
  • 72: Ever won a spelling bee? 
    • Gettin' kicked out in the first round. 
  • 73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy? 
    • No, I have not. 
  • 74: Own any record albums? 
    • Not personally. 
  • 75: Own a record player? 
    • I wish. 
  • 76: Regularly burn incense? 
    • Never have. 
  • 77: Ever been in love? 
    • Nope. 
  • 78: Who would you like to see in concert? 
    • Tokyo Police Club or Third Eye Blind
  • 79: What was the last concert you saw? 
    • Blink-182/My Chemical Romance. 
  • 80: Hot tea or cold tea? 
    • Hot. 
  • 81: Tea or coffee?
    • Whichever is more convenient.
  • 82: Sugar or snickerdoodles? 
    • Neither...
  • 83: Can you swim well? 
    • Not well, but I can swim. 
  • 84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? 
    • Yep.
  • 85: Are you patient? 
    • Too patient, I think. 
  • 86: DJ or band, at a wedding? 
    • Band.
  • 87: Ever won a contest? 
    • You know I won a writing contest in 7th grade. 
  • 88: Ever have plastic surgery? 
    • Nope...
  • 89: Which are better black or green olives? 
    • Either. All olives are amazing. 
  • 90: Can you knit or crochet? 
    • NO. I can't do anything. 
  • 91: Best room for a fireplace? 
    • A family room?
  • 92: Do you want to get married? 
    • I'd love to. 
  • 93: If married, how long have you been married? 
    • n/a
  • 94: Who was your HS crush? 
    • Who wasn't my high school crush?
  • 95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? 
    • Nah, I usually get my own way anyway. 
  • 96: Do you have kids? 
    • No.
  • 97: Do you want kids? 
    • Lots
  • 98: Whats your favorite color? 
    • Yellow or purple.
  • 99: Do you miss anyone right now? 
    • Not at all. 

Sunday, October 23, 2011

The poets are just kids who didn't make it

I need to stop blogging on my phone. I get such terrible typos this way. No one reads my blog anymore anyway so it's all good.

I just can't sleep.
I'm not mad at anyone which is weird.
I'm not really that sad which is weird as well.
I am a little confused but not to a point where I can't sleep.

I think the only way to remedy this situation is to eat.
I have a doctors appointment tomorrow morning at some point I just honestly have no idea when.


What to eat...

Thursday, October 20, 2011

So, in a desperate attempt to figure out what I want to do with my life, I'm going to blog about the pros and cons of the various jobs/positions I currently hold. Remember now, 98% of the points are going to be cons because this is me and my glass is half empty.


Best Buy: I don't care enough to work there. Everyone else knows so much about the product and my reaction to about 80% of questions a customer asks me is "let me bring you over to _______". And I'm basically screwed when we're busy and no one can help me. I like almot everyone that works there, though, that's the only bonus. And I feel comfortable. But we all know who works there that I don't like... It's becoming monotonous though, as we all knew I would get bored with it and want to move on.


TSS: this is a horrible job. Well, okay it's actually a really nice, easy job I'm just not cut out to work with people with disabilities. Honestly, I'm not sure I'm. It out to work with people in general. I need a desk job. Anyway, I have no idea what I was thinking when I applied/ took this job. I'm drafting my two weeks in a few minutes. I feel terrible about quitting because that's not really my M.O, but whatever. I don't want to waste my clients time. Look at how mature I'm being. The only pro of the job is the fact that it keeps my mind busy and I don't think about how sucky my life is.

Volunteering: who knows if you even know what I do. 90% of the time I drive out to Oakland and sit like a receptionist except I'm too scared to answer the phones so I stare at the wall and text or blog. Sometimes I get to meet with girls who either think they are pregnant, might have an STD or are pregnant and need some extra help. I like doing that when I get along with the girls. It makes me really nervous when I have to counsel 40 year old women on healthy relationships since I've never been in one myself. The best thing about working here is that it's helping me sort out my values. I always knew what I wanted to an extent but seeing these girls in here and constantly hearing/telling girls hat they're worth so much more than a one night stand kind of thing and how to not let boys pressure them in any way... Well, that's uplifting. If only I was better at getting my words out, I'd be able to inspire these girls to have self- esteem. And that's really what I want to do.


Old navy: this waste of time serves no purpose. No one even knows me there. I have to wake up at 5 am for my shift. It's boring. I don't even like anyone except Patty. Remind me why I'm there again? Oh right, the 50% discount...


And now I'm going to learn about STD's so I can teach my 4 o'clock client about them.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

take a breath. don't it sound so easy.

You know, All Time Low, maybe it isn't my weekend, but I highly doubt it's going to be my year. Stop singing that to me.

Did I tell you I got a new job?
I'm working with kids with special needs.
I think I said that before.

I'm just going to keep with the mantra "anything is better than Best Buy"
And I'm just going to go back to school and change everything.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011