I went for a really nice walk in the cemetery today.
It's actually quite peaceful. I'm not being morbid or anything.
And now with the leaves changing, it's most perfect.
Maybe one day I'll go take some pictures of it.
I wish I wasn't breaking out.
My supervisor told me yesterday that I remind him of Eeyore.
Should I have taken offense to this?
Because I did. He made it seem like it was some good thing, like I have no emotion and you can never tell how I'm actually feeling.
I find this strange because I always thought I was a "wear your heart on your sleeve" type of person. Like I have no ability to hide what I'm feeling. Apparently not. Apparently everyone thinks I'm this calm, happy person. Then again, this is also extremely contradictory to the 900 times a day I get "Don't look so sad".
How one portrays one thing and feels another, I'm not sure. I guess I'm doing it though.
When people tell me I'm calm I don't understand. Inside I'm like a roller coaster, a boxer and a 15 year old hysteric girl that just found out that her boyfriend is cheating on her.
I like the fact that people don't see it though.
It calms me even further.